Feeling Meh but...Instead of feeling sorry for myself I am going to count my blessings.
There are the obvious good things:
God who loves me unconditionally and without end.
My two amazing beautiful talented and extremely intelligent children.
My wonderful loving and supportive family.
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My cherished and strengthening circle of friends.
My chosen family, who need no blood ties to be bonded to me.
The fact that my basic needs and some wants are more than taken care of.
The gifts God granted me, my voice, my words, my intuition, and my heart. I love to share them with those I love.
But I am thankful for the not so obvious things as well:
Every tear I have cried. God has watched each of them fall and knows the reason for each one.
Every person who ever ignored me and made me feel little more than a toy on a shelf. It reminds me to be careful not to do the same to those who are in my life.
Every person who ever betrayed my trust or made me doubt the good in people. It forced me to look harder for the good in everyone.
Every person who has lied to me. It makes truth and honesty that much more precious.
Every person who took what I freely gave them as if they were entitled to it. It made me want to show my gratitude more when others have given to me.
Every person that harmed me physically or forced me to do things against my will. You have given me a story to share with those who have experienced the same and have given me the will and stubbornness to not let you defeat me.
I am thankful I am not perfect because then I would have no need for God or anyone else in my life. I am thankful to be horrendously and completely messed up. I have done horrible things but thankfully that doesn't automatically make me a horrible person. I am just a flawed person who makes many many many mistakes. If you could see my heart you would understand how deeply I regret when I wrong others and how deeply I love those dear to me.
Last but not least I am thankful for the person I am. I am thankful for the body, mind, heart and soul that make me who I am. I will fail but I can begin again. I will hurt others and myself but I can be forgiven. As long as I move forward I have won. As long as I learn and continue to grow then I am worth it. I just have to keep saying that a few million more times until it saturates my essence and invades that block head of mine.
I am at peace. I am content. I am enough.
There are the obvious good things:
God who loves me unconditionally and without end.
My two amazing beautiful talented and extremely intelligent children.
My wonderful loving and supportive family.
...
My cherished and strengthening circle of friends.
My chosen family, who need no blood ties to be bonded to me.
The fact that my basic needs and some wants are more than taken care of.
The gifts God granted me, my voice, my words, my intuition, and my heart. I love to share them with those I love.
But I am thankful for the not so obvious things as well:
Every tear I have cried. God has watched each of them fall and knows the reason for each one.
Every person who ever ignored me and made me feel little more than a toy on a shelf. It reminds me to be careful not to do the same to those who are in my life.
Every person who ever betrayed my trust or made me doubt the good in people. It forced me to look harder for the good in everyone.
Every person who has lied to me. It makes truth and honesty that much more precious.
Every person who took what I freely gave them as if they were entitled to it. It made me want to show my gratitude more when others have given to me.
Every person that harmed me physically or forced me to do things against my will. You have given me a story to share with those who have experienced the same and have given me the will and stubbornness to not let you defeat me.
I am thankful I am not perfect because then I would have no need for God or anyone else in my life. I am thankful to be horrendously and completely messed up. I have done horrible things but thankfully that doesn't automatically make me a horrible person. I am just a flawed person who makes many many many mistakes. If you could see my heart you would understand how deeply I regret when I wrong others and how deeply I love those dear to me.
Last but not least I am thankful for the person I am. I am thankful for the body, mind, heart and soul that make me who I am. I will fail but I can begin again. I will hurt others and myself but I can be forgiven. As long as I move forward I have won. As long as I learn and continue to grow then I am worth it. I just have to keep saying that a few million more times until it saturates my essence and invades that block head of mine.
I am at peace. I am content. I am enough.
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